Hello! Me!

Today I read a blog post by me, from 2013. I felt my own thoughts, feelings, and desires. Felt like meeting an old close friend. People have many identities, many personalities, but I was never one such. Up until 2014 I was a monolith. I believe, and people who know me might agree, I never changed since kindergarten, not my face, not my mannerisms, not the way I felt. I was till 2014 a student, wanting to learn various subjects, read some, and also become a writer. That has been my identity all these years. So discovering that I have facets and layers is something very new. In 2014 I fell in love, and later got married. That year, and year after that was a blur, a roller-coaster of emotions. I was a totally different person. Love sure is crazy and also makes one crazy (in a good way!) By late 2015 I had a daughter, catching up with motherhood was quite something, especially for someone who never evolved since kindergarten! Suddenly, I had to make up for so much growth. And while I was at it, I discovered I was to have another baby soon. So by December 2016 I had two little girls. (One of my secret fantasies was to have twin girls. This was really close to that.) In the interim I also managed to have my first book published and had an offer to work on another one. With two little girls and two books I just went from one day to the other and never had the time to sit idle and reflect. Now, that my girls are both at preschool, I have some time to reflect and ponder. And once again after so many years, I sit idle, ponder, reflect, and write something from my heart. Reading the last blog by me, it seems as though time had stopped somewhere in 2013. I can’t believe I am in 2020. I still feel the same. Only when I think about these years it feels like I was on a adventure of some sorts and now I am back to me. So, hello! Me!